Sunday, March 21, 2010

Returning to my blog

I don't know if anyone will still be reading this blog, as I have not posted in over a year. I thought it might be time to put this venue back into use, for what purpose or addressing what issues, who knows?

It is, nominally, a blog about the mundane. I suppose I live in one of the more mundane spots of San Francisco, a fact in which I take great pride (tinged with spite, maybe). The Sutro Heights area, near the VA Hospital, is really not mundane at all -- at least not as mundane as the flatter, more standardized Sunset, in which I grew up and which I also love. In fact, we're mere steps from the Land's End Trail, part of the beautiful Golden Gate National Recreation Area. Yet as much as I love that area, right now my favorite part of the neighborhood is outer Clement Street, the stretch that runs from about 33rd Avenue out to 45th, right by the Lincoln Park Golf Course. In late afternoons, it's lovely to walk east or west on Clement Street, looking down the avenues on Golden Gate Park and the western half of the city. You can see nearly the entire SF coastline down to somewhere around Pacifica and the spires of various, mostly Catholic churches that rise amidst the Richmond and Sunset residential neighborhoods. For me it's a mild, mostly residential cityscape soaked in memories of my childhood, awkward adolescence, summers home from college, the wrenching and confusing years of rebuilding after my father's death, and now the last nine years here in San Francisco with Sarah and (more recently) Daisy.

Projecting my thoughts about my life and my past onto this view makes me think of past times elsewhere, and all the neighborhoods, views, and walks that were important to me in other places. I'm kind of doubtful about the prospects of an afterlife, by in my mundane way, I've tried to imagine it as a world of my favorite neighborhoods from different towns all mixed in with or right next to each other, so that I could walk from downtown Eugene right into the inner Sunset, and then over to the Nines in Ithaca, then a coffee in Isla Vista and finally back to my Richmond District apartment, outside of which I'm pushing an excited pink-and-white helmeted Daisy on her new red, yellow, and blue tricycle, just too happy -- both of us -- to be pedaling around the block at 45th and Point Lobos right before the sun goes down. I myself took years to learn how to ride a bike. (My sister, four years younger, beat me by a year, I think.) I don't know if that has anything to do with how I feel about Daisy, but as I push and steer using the weird long loop-stick think that's wedged into the back of her tricycle, I just want her to enjoy blissfully, intensely, and un-self-consciously pedalling at her own pace on three secure wheels without worrying about anything at all.